Friday, October 31, 2008

Big girl bed

Well Ellie's crib was recalled so we decided to borrow a toddler bed from Sadie and see if she will sleep in it so we dont have to buy a new crib til we have another baby (if we are ever blessed again). Well we took down her old bed tonight and set up her room for the new bed. she liked being able to get on and off it. Well at first when it was time to lay down she cried and got up. we let her play 10 minutes longer and then she was crabby so I laid her down and she was out. However the night is still young. We will see how she does all night and what she does in the morning.

Trick or Treat

Last night was Madrid's trick or treat and Ellie had a blast! She usually is so snooty to new people and even people she nows. She runs the show on who she will look at and who will look at her. Well we found the key to her heart...CANDY! All you have to do is offer her a piece of candy and you are in. She was not shy towards anyone. It was so funny. My dad who she has always been leary of, gave her a sack of goodies and bam instant bess friend! LOL She gave him kisses and ran around his house having fun with Sadie's boys. It is great she is coming out of her shell! She was tired when she got back and we all slept in til 8 am! It was wonderful.

Night Eyes

Last Sunday we went to Night Eyes at the Blank Park Zoo. Although it was so windy we had a great time! Ellie loved dressing up in her costume and even met a carebear friend in the bounce room.

and this was just too irressistable to not get! what a cute little butt!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

To Remember Our Angel

Tommorrow is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. I encourage all to light a candle tomorrow at 7 pm in memory of all those who have loved and lost a baby. There is not a day goes by that I do not think of the baby that we never got to meet. I often wonder if it was a girl or boy, who it would have looked like, and what a great friend a sibling would have been for Ellie. It hurts me to know that Ellie was not meant to be the oldest yet that is what she will always be known to be. Still after three plus years the pain is there. Yet I know and appreciate so much what I have with Ellie. I found this poem last year and only another who has lost can understand the full impact.



A Different Child poem
by Pandora MacMillian

People noticeThere's a special glow around you.
You growSurrounded by love,Never doubting you are wanted;Only look at the pride and joyIn your mother and father's eyes.
And if sometimesBetween the smilesThere's a trace of tears,One dayYou'll understand.
You'll understandThere was once another childA different childWho was in their hopes and dreams.
That child will never outgrow the baby clothesThat child will never keep them up at nightIn fact, that child will never be any trouble at all.
Except sometimes, in a silent moment,When mother and father miss so muchThat different child.
May hope and love wrap you warmlyAnd may you learn the lesson foreverHow infinitely preciousHow infinitely fragileIs this life on earth.
One day, as a young man or womanYou may see another mother's tearsAnother father's silent griefThen you, and you aloneWill understandAnd offer the greatest comfort.
When all hope seems lost,You will tell themWith great compassion,"I know how you feel.I'm only hereBecause my mother tried again."

Please tomorrow remember me and all the other moms out there who have lost. My special intentions for tomorrow are:

*Our Angel~May 10, 2005 @7 weeks

*My Niece Charlotte Jo~born sleeping on May 18, 2007

*My cousin Dawn Renee~born sleeping in 1976

*My cousin Baby Devine~ early pregnancy loss 2007

*All the moms on my babyzones boards who have lost

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Pumpkin Patch

finally got time to upload our picks from our trip to the pumpkin patch. Last year Ellie hated posing with the pumpkins, but this year she was fine beign with them but would rather play with the sticks.

After searching and searching we found a good pumpkin. Ellie begged to differ on our choice. She thought this green one was much better!

We went with the Bergs and Thomas happily chose one, it was 33lbs!! It weighed more than he does!

I love how they always walk together. Lets just say they better get married becasue we have oodles and oodles of pics of them growing up together. One of Thomas first clear words was Ellie (so cute!) so I think taht is a sign!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

We miss Blue

Just remembering my doggie Blue who died a year ago today.

I miss you Blue!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008


Inspired by my cousin Sandy I also decided to share what I am thankful for in this rough world we are living in right now.
1) My husband who loves me and tells me that everyday
2) My daughter whose hugs and kisses make the days seem brighter
3) The rest of my extended family
4) For having the freedom to be able to celebrate my faith
5) A house we to live in and a car to drive
6) The great opportunity to get to stay home with Ellie
7) Having enough money to get by, not a lot extra but enough which is more than a lot of people right now
8) Jayce finally using the potty almost all the time!
9) My friends who do have kids and understand the worries of being a mom
10) My friends who do not have families of their own yet that they do not forget me